Okay ya'll I'm so sorry....   I'm not gonna from the earth.. I've just moved my blog and have focused it a bit more..  It will be interesting to get your feedfback on it.  I hope you like it... See you over there...  Get caught up.. Things are starting to happen fast.   Come along for the ride.. ... << MORE >>

So there you have it... Bishop Elect, Martin George Brazier, Sr.'s counsel to me, because I asked for my ring back, was to take my life, for the betterment of society, and give back his last name, as well as the last name of my Grandfather (Hadden.) I wonder if the Bishop uses that same tenderness, concern and Christ-likeness in the course of his current ministry? << MORE >>

I'm not gonna lie, we were definitely a hit with the fellas running around the bar, but the trannies... the trannies had nothing but pure hatred. Within minutes I had been pushed and accosted by 4 gurls. (For those who don't know, t-girls or gurls is a proper way to address transgendered ladies). One of them, probably the biggest gurl I have ever seen made passes in front of and behind us all night long to see if we would move out of her way. Every time, I politely said excuse me and moved, and she would respond with wild hatred in her eyes, "Yeah you better move."<< MORE >>

How many little children have taken their lives this year because of the relentless attacks and bullying of them because of their sexual orientation?  I wish it were just one, but even one is too many.  Let me throw another number out there for you.  Two!  That's how many degree's of separation violent and brutal gaybashing is away from me.  I have several friends who personally know victims of hate inspired beatings!  Brandon Patrick (pictured below) was attacked by three assailants who tried to saw his scalp from his body, for no reason other than being gay.  Someone I know, knows him personally.  Several of my friends know this young nursing school couple on the Oregon Coast for spring break earlier this year who were viciously beat unconscious because of their sexual orientation. ... ...<< MORE >>

I've been a fighter since I can remember. I've had to be one. You don't make it through my life's experiences with some sort of normality with out being a fighter, and even though I've been in over a dozen fist fights, with three times as many guys, physical fighting is not the type of fighting I'm talking about. I've always been the guy who stood up for, or who protected those who couldn't protect themselves. You can ask anyone who's known me for years that this is the case. Whether i was called Pooh Bear, Floyd, Hadden or Justice I've always been on the side of the underdog. [if you're curious about all the names check this out!] The battle for glbtq rights is not different; but I'm starting to think I'm on the wrong side of this fight. I am finding it harder and harder to fight for gay rights in this country, when gays continue to show their colors as the most prejudice and bigoted group in America. Granted theres are all kinds of groups out there that hate gays, but gays are the only groups that they hate. They're fine with women, racial minorities, even other religions. Gays on the other hand, don't seem to like anyone. As a gay, black man, I am finding it harder and harder to fight against prejudice inside a group that subjects almost all of its members to internal prejudice. << MORE >>

Mom Tasered Repeatedly in Front of Kids, Arrested - 2162 diggs, 722 comments.  Mom tortured daughter "like a turkey in the oven" - 1804 diggs, 584 comments.  Blood Gang Member Beats His 4-year-old son for wearing blue - 585 diggs, 196 comments.  Motherly Love: Mom helps son dispose of Girlfriend's Corpse - 365 Diggs, 62 comments.  4-year-old Held Ransom when mum refused to pay for late pizza - 340 Diggs, 94 comments.  Mom Begs At Off Ramp For Son's Tuition - 1 Digg (just dugg by myself), 0 comments.  Ladies and gentleman, are we serious?  We let these other horrible stories intrigue us and give no mind to the love that is flowing out there in this world.  ...<< MORE >>

Today I began my Master's in Sports and Excercise Psychology via online course through Argosy University Information on Argosy University, and I thought I'd post some of my assignments on my blog on occaision.  I thought that might be a fun thing to do.  So I'm starting with my first assignment which has to do with an autobiography of my sports/ psychology/ professional background.  I hope you like it.   ...<< MORE >>

After hearing Rev Sharpton's speech, I can't help but think that Michael paved the way for me at my school.  It's hard to hate a kid, or call a kid a nigger when he looks like your idol.  I bet the Michael absolutely helped form people's opinions of me, and for the better.  I believe, that my life would have been considerably different, if Michael was not the first black person into the homes of so many of those people I quickly learned to call my friends.   ... ...<< MORE >>

Maybe it's because I've had my share of failures that I have nothing but love, admiration and faith in her.  I know that it's not hard to end up further down a path than you ever thought you'd be.  For many people it starts because reality is just too much for you too bear.  We may want to forget, or we may just want to numb the pain.  Regardless, it is effective in doing that, and sometimes it is actually pleasurable.  For me, the relationships around me seemed grow, and that feeling of emotional pleasure made you not care what was going on.  Sometimes the pain is so great that you don't care that you're taking risks, because it might just be better than having to acknowledge the pain and do what it takes to heal the hurt and move forward.  You all can talk about Whitney all you want, and call her what you will, but the woman has balls the size of Miami, to wear her crazy out in broad daylight for everyone to see.  I am so grateful every day that my life was not filmed or written about.  How would you like your dirty laundry aired, and ridiculed for the world to see?  ... ...<< MORE >>

I've been back in Seattle for about three years now, and I still don't understand this place.  Well technically I have been living in Seattle for about 6 months now.  I moved back to Washington State on the 4th of July 2006.  It's coming up on 3 years now, and one thing I've decided, and I'm glad that I did, is that I don't need a lot of friends in this city.  I was a bit emotional and depressed when I moved back; granted, my depressed doesn't quite look like someone else's depressed, but I was.  In that state, I didn't have the energy to trust people the way I trust my friends, and so I'd rather just go without.  Even with my friendship muscle turned off, there are a very select few that managed to make it through all of that, and Iove and adore them now..  However, now that I've shaken off the funk and come back to myself, I find myself not really wanting to let anyone else in this city in close.  For the last 3 years I've been doing a lot of observing, and the statement that keeps coming to me over and over again, is: with the friendships I see running around Seattle, who needs enemies?

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I was speaking to a friend the other day who is dealing with relationship issues.  This person was trying to internalize the negative, hurtful and even somewhat hateful things their mate was saying.  I had to reassure my friend, that you cannot cause someone to be angry, or to say hateful words.  You cannot cause someone to discriminate against you; and you cannot cause someone to speak words of love if the abundance in their hurt is hate, or anger or wrath.  All you can do is store up your own treasures in your heart.  That is all any of us can do.  ... ...<< MORE >>

Maybe it's because I'm a Scorpio, maybe it's because I actually pay attention, but to me, it seems like sex rules the world.  It can't just be the circles I travel in, because I travel in so many different and varying circles, and every where I go, sex is king, or queen.  Maybe we're much more like animals than we ever want to admit.  Maybe sex appeal is our way of fighting to be fittest in this game we call survival.  Whatever it is, I have come to find that my own personal power rose when I discovered my own sex appeal, and allowed it to be the compelling argument in my introduction to the world. ...<< MORE >>

It's not asking much. Can we allow the young people in our community to be just that: young, impressionable, without all the answers? What would happen if the older, more experienced of our community stopped preying on the young people, either physically or mentally, and we started to build them up. Would we still be sitting here today, fighting for our rights if we all acted to strengthen and support and mentor each other.. instead of tearing each other apart? I don't think so. I'm going to do my best to find out! Mentor or men tore... it's your decision! ...<< MORE >>

When an ancient calendar, created thousands of years before our current one more accurately measures the cycles and movements of the planets in our solar system than our own, you have to take note of it.  Especially since the 5000 year old calendar ends abruptly on December 21, 2012.  What does it all mean?  Is it the coming age of Aquarius sung about in times past, and even predicted in the Bible?  Is it the coming cosmic destruction of earth?  Is it an opportunity for the advancement and evolution of our people and our world?  I think it all has to do with Love!

David Wilcock takes us on a mind blowing look through 2012, consciousness, and our connection we've always had to each other, and the universe.<< MORE >>

Well, Obama is going through his 100 day critique, and so I figured I should give myself a 20 year critique and see how I've matched up the things that I said I was going to do and be with what I've done and who I've become. Well I did go to the US Air Force Academy, and ran track and played football, but that is about where everything ends. My degree was in Behavioral Science, I haven't done any post grad work, and for many years I hated politics and what it stood for, and what it did to ...<< MORE >>

Little brother, I am sorry for being so selfish. I am sorry for letting my fear and my insecurities cripple me and my ability to protect you. Two days ago, my little brother committed suicide because of continuously being harassed and bullied at school for being "gay and a snitch," and it is breaking my heart. I don't know how much more I can take of this as he adds his name to the growing list of my very young brothers who are taking their own lives, ...<< MORE >>

Now granted, Miss California has most definitely finished high school, but the type of knowledge and education that I am referring to, most people never receive until they reach higher education. In fact, our current outdated and antiquated public school system is not meant to teach people how to think for themselves at all, but how to become productive members of the working class.  In other words, our "educational system" and many times our parenting styles are actual moving to keep us ignorant, uniformed, lacking in knowledge and comprehension...<< MORE >>

To me, life is one giant, interconnected, cycle of evolution. Each revolution of the cycle gives us an opportunity to master being our authentic selves. As we begin to re-cognize our divine authentic selves at one level we graduate to a higher level of consciousness, and we begin the revolution once more; this time exponentially faster....When all is said and done, those who win the championships in life, are those who are able to perfect themselves through the continual process of failure, correction, and improvement.<< MORE >>

The answer to that timeless and ageless question of why are we here is so simple! You are here to be you, and I am here to be me; fully and authentically, and the universe places different benchmarks in your life along the way to make sure that you know you're staying on the right path. I would describe it as a pull. I have found that the universe doesn't push anyone to do anything. You are never forced to forgive anyone, but you may feel a pull to forgive. When you feel a pull in your life, it's because the way has already been made for you to accomplish the task at hand. << MORE >>

This is what I'm tired of...    I'm tired of supposedly grown-ass people that are supposed to be sanctified and filled with the Holy Ghost, sitting on social networking sites and talking about how horrible they think my mother is.  If you don't want her in your life any more, then get her out of your mouth.  ...<< MORE >>

I don't know how well everyone who reads this blog knows me, but something that has always been close to my heart, is the environment.  My mother started a company in the 80's that helped pioneer curbside recycling in Seattle, and later on she wrote the Federal Environmental Protection Laws for the country of Nigeria.   All along the way, I was involved with the business, and the things that always intrigued me the most, were the incredible technologies that existed to solve the problems that we face both in America and around the world.  ...<< MORE >>

From a place of being hurt and feeling helpless, I made up in my young mind, that I would never be anyone's victim ever again.  I took the adage of never letting them see you sweat, and multiplied and exemplified it's meaning.  No one would ever see me sweat, or even bend.  My strength would be the shadow I cast upon my life, and no one would ever look upon me again as prey.  I would become the predator as it were.  Life would be for my taking.  This world would conform to my will.  Pain was never injury, only ...<< MORE >>

I don't have much to say except we can create this right here and right now. We are powerful, creative and divine. All of our separations and distinctions are what we have created. We don't have to keep creating prejudice and judgment. We can create, life and love and understanding. InLake'ch. I am another you and you are another me. ...<< MORE >>

I don't know if you've heard about it yet, but Ken Starr, the attorney who went after Bill Clinton after his Lewinski debacle, has come to national fame again for his role as Lead Counsel for proponents of Proposition 8. This time, he's going after 18,000 legally-married Californian couples who have been married for months. See article here. Now, whether you believe in same-sex marriages or not, the question you really have to be asking Mr. Starr, is, "Where the hell were you when we really had some folks we needed to force to divorce?" Let's name a few, shall we? Why not start with Whitney Houston...<< MORE >>

I wasn't around to march with Martin Luther King, Jr for civil rights for the black community, but I'm pretty sure I would have been out there with him.  I probably would have been up in the mix with Malcolm as well, as we see eye to eye on many many different things.  I chose not to be involved with the million man march, as I would never choose Minister Farrakhan as my representative to the nation, and I was overjoyed when thousands all over the country joined me in the streets to march in protest of the passing of ...<< MORE >>